in memoriam

an excerpt from the march diaries

i hope that, above all else, i am remembered for how much i love.

someday when i’m gone, i hope that my memory lives on as one full of love.

whatever else i have done should come after how deeply and honestly i loved
my friends, my partner, my family— chosen and borne— my community, my life

i hope it is said that my love radiated from me when i entered a room;
that it was impossible to forget that i loved you;
that the love i sowed bloomed in every heart that i touched

i hope that before the grief of my absence,
you feel the remnants of my love for you,
holding your hand or warming your soul;

i hope you know that my love never left you and never will;
that what i left with you is yours to keep
and is uniquely yours

i cannot hold onto all the love i have to give,
lest i overflow or implode

i hope that i am living this way now
and building the reality for it to be true

i hope that you feel it now

it’s already yours

i’ve left it for you—
in your heart or by your front door or at your feet
a gift specially made for your soul by mine

yours forever

i hope you remember

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